Sometimes I think "Yes. I have come so far from last year's depression and worry and strife" - only to find I am not yet ready to leave the comfort of the old year behind. Because in that old year I struggled with trusting God. I struggled with just being ok. I struggled with my relationships. And, sometimes, it's easier to remain in my struggles that to remain in Him. Why, I do not know. Because honestly? Who wouldn't LEAP at the opportunity to just sit at Jesus' feet? Who wouldn't come and kneel and worship the worry and strife and depression and hurts away? I am more comfortable in my self-pity than I am with the overwhelming fact that I HAVE A SAVIOR, and HIS NAME IS JESUS and HE LOVES ME. And in Him, there is no room for my worry and fears. In Him I can put my complete faith. And in Him -I can truly live.
Today, right now, at this very moment I KNOW His promises. And today, I am choosing His TRUTH. I will live INTENTIONALLY. I will learn to lean, to love and to trust in His perfect time and in His perfect name. No more excuses.
We are on the brink of a new and beautiful year. And now, I am excited. Last year, this verse stuck with me- it's engraved on my silver, twisted ring and it's written on to my heart. This verse, over and over, brought me peace, even when I felt I still had no direction or purpose.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." (italics mine) Romans 8:28
I am searching for a verse this year to memorize... Will you join me? Let's memorize His love. He cares so infinitely for you- and I KNOW the Lord Jesus is calling you today - Will you come and rest in His arms? His burden is easy and His yolk is light.
Re-reading your posts. This is lovely! I'm having to slowly digest it several times to try and catch all the richness within your words. Thank you. For speaking truth, for sharing your heart. I needed to hear those words :)
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